it gonna be a long weekend this week due to public holiday, but gonna go back to camp tonight again, then tml book out. Stupid rite? but that's how SAF works...

Past 2 days basically do ntg much @ camp, waste much time... expect swimming everyday. Thank God, my eyes is on e road to recovery with medication.

During e past few weeks, i dunnoe y but i have dis sense tt when i'm doing smthg, i'm nt e 1 tt is doing it.. maybe some of u dun get wad i said,hmm juz like saying ur soul have left ur body? Wield feeling... smtimes it comes smtimes it goes..

When ever i had time in camp, i would reflect on my life, like wad have i been doing so far with life, have i been living it to e max? & so on.. Somehow like CJ said to me on sun, suddenly i feel all alone, i dun have much friends ard me. Especially when i go to church, usually i'll be found alone. Maybe i'm used to it le ba? Living in my own world... That's y God had been encouraging me with tt pharse tt He spoke to me some time back in a early sunday morning "No one loves u more than Jesus do"

Had been sms-ing her dis week telling her how much i'm sorry when i sms so much throughout 1 week, personally i think tt it might be "fan" to her, but she think likewise. I dunnoe if she speaking from e bottom of her heart, cos i cant really trust her now. Her words are neither here nor there. Maybe it's juz rite for me to move on w/o her.. I have been saying so much abt dis but it's like i nv made any improvment on that... somewhere in my heart she still have a place.. Sigh